Jen16226

Just when I was in a groove with enjoying my time not working and getting good, quality workouts in……I find a job! LOL

The job is 30 mins from home, which means it is mass chaos when I get out of work since the kids usually are either at a baseball field or have to be at a field at around the time I get back towards home. 

I am not too worried about the eating.  I feel I have been doing very well in that department…..my problem is exercise.  I have been trying to get up early and do it……honestly, I hate it.  I do not feel that I can do a good workout in the morning anymore.  I used to get up at 4:30 and do The Firm.  Why can’t I seem to get to that again?  In the evening, I am so busy taking the kids where they need to be, then home to eat dinner and by that time straighten up a little and get to bed.  When I mean straighten up a little, I truly mean a little….start the dishwasher, or throw a load of wash in….little 15 minute stuff.  I can’t walk at the baseball field…..surrounded by fence and woods.  I can’t work out late at night or I won’t be able to get to sleep.

I have got to figure out a routine.  When I workout I feel everything is good with my plan.;…..plus it honestly makes me feel good.

I have been sooooo sick since yesterday.  It honestly feels like the flu…every joint just aches, freezing, don’t want to move.  I googled flu like symptoms and chantix yesterday…sure enough it is a side-effect, but given that when my hubby was just in town he was sick and the flu is going around, I am not sure if thats what it is or just the meds.  Going to give it a few more days to see what happens.

I am definately not working out today.  I have not one ounce of energy to get it done.  I pushed myself through it yesterday and I think that was a massive mistake.  At the beginning it was a great workout, but come the end of it, ugh.

I really am not hungry, but have been forcing myself to eat and drink as normally as possible.

I will get through this.

Oh yes.  I have my diet together and my exercise…..my determination is there.  Now I am adding into the mix trying to quit smoking.

I went for a physical on Monday(my first one in my adult life) and asked for either wellbutrin or chantix to help me.  I had tried everything else under the sun and could not do it.  So they gave me a script for Chantix and I started taking it that morning with my total quit date next Tuesday.  I have noticed a slow down in wanting a cigarette already as they taste different to me.  Although I already am having the nausea side effect kicking in big time this morning.  I did eat a little something with it and drank about 16 oz of water with it.  Oh well.  If this is what I need to go through for a little bit in order to get what I need in my quest for total health, then so be it.

Last week was awesome and there are not alot of changes that I feel I need to make to my eating or my workouts.

Changes to make for this week:

1- Up my cardio from 30 mins to 45 mins.

2-Keep the jogging on the treadmill up!  I can do it!

3- Up my weights on the nautilaus machines.

4- Make sure I get my fruits and veggies in.

5- Eat some of my activity points each day.

Hubby is coming home tomorrow and I am very excited, but I will not let that derail me from my schedule.  He has to adapt to my schedule, not me drop everything because he is home for a few days.

The things I have done right this week:

1-Great WI of down 4 pounds.

2- Consistent with my workouts.

3- Actually started to jog a little bit on the treadmill!!!!  I have never jogged in my life!!!!!

4-Ate right…..stayed within my points and ate good foods.

5-Stayed positive.

6- Did not stress eat.

I think the hardest one was the stress eating this week.  If you had read my last blog, we had a really horrible thing happen in our little town….brief breakdown….3 kids on their way to school were hit by a tractor trailer..the load the truck was carrying(rolled steel) came loose and rolled off right onto the car crushing the drivers side horribly.  The girl driving was killed instantly.  The boys were seriously injured.  The boys are very good friends with DS#2, we know both sets of parents as well(one of the boys and the girl are brother and sister, the 3rd boy is their cousin.).  In our tiny town, it has been a HUGE blow.

This coming week, I will continue with everything I am doing.  There really isn’t anything that I feel I need to change in my program….not at the moment.

Everyday it seems like something just gets under my skin…..less often though since I was laid off.

Yesterday our tiny town was rocked pretty hard by tragedy.  3 kids were on their way to the HS and were in an accident with a truck…the trucks load of rolled steel then came loose and landed right on top of the car crushing the drivers side.  The 17 y/o girl driving was killed instantly.  Her younger brother and cousin were hurt badly.

Living in such a small town has it’s advantages…certainly in where everyone knows everbody…but it also hurts in an instance like this for the same reason.

My complaining about lifes ups and downs seems sooooo little and petty compared to what this family is going through right now.  My heart just breaks for them. 

It goes to show not to take things for granted and to hug the ones you love often.

I am sooo proud of myself this past week.

Since getting laid off last Friday, I really put it in my mind that I was not going to sit in the house all day….and I am following through on that.

I have been going to the YMCA each day for a little over an hour to workout!  I figure we have the membership and had really started to use it a couple of months ago, well I am now going to start using it for me and not just as a family.  They have a very nice weight room, pool and some cardio equipment.  I have started to make it a point to get in 30 mins of cardio each day and then to alternate upper and lower body in the weight room.  So far so good.

I will not stop. I will keep going. 

It was sooooo nice to not have to dread getting up this morning to go to that hellhole. 

I think I have a good plan in place on how to handle my time off. 

First….I am changing my WW meeting.  I will start going to a morning meeting that my mom goes to.

Second…..Since we have the Y membership, I am going to go there a few days a week to get my workouts in and make sure I swim too.

Third……the job market just plain sucks where I am.  Unless you are looking for something in the medical field, your chances are slim to none….so the state will pay for courses and I am going to take advantage of that.

It has been a VERY stressful week.  VERY.

The kids have been grating on my last nerve with their fighting. 

Baseball season has officially started with practices.

Work….well I have been hating it for a long time.

 Sooooo this morning I went into work and guess what?!?!  I got laid off!!!!!!!!!  I almost did a jig right there when they told me!  I have been looking in the paper and online for a new job, but now I can take my time and be choosy about it.  I was very gracious when they told me.  Heck I even stayed half the day just to complete some things and tie up some loose ends on my side. 

Through all of this my eating has been good.  That did surprise me a bit.  I think the fact that I have been working out has helped me in that department.

Oh well….off to workout before the kids get home from school!

I am very proud of myself this week.

First, my WI on Monday……I stayed the same.  I totally expected that due to Tom.

I have been eating very good all week and did not cave too badly.  When I did cave into something that I wanted, I found either an alternative or I did have what I wanted and made sure that I journaled every morsel.

Journaling……I journaled everything!  I am good at it anyway, but this time every BLT.

 Exercise……this is the department that I have a hard time with.  Honestly, the best thing to happen was getting my hubby to bring that elliptical up to the bedroom for me.  I have been using it almost every other day since he brought it up there and I am able to do it for 30 mins!!!  I have also been incorporating the strength training in there.  This area has been hard on me this time around.  I am not able to do what I love due to my knee.  I am not sure if this is going to be a permanment thing or hopefully just until I get it stronger.  I miss doing the firm, but my knee is not stable enough to get on that box.  But anyway back to what I was saying…..this has been the hardest adjustment for me.  To try and figure out another way of getting cardio in, without tearing the ACL again. 

No matter what it is, you can always find an alternative…..it may take a while and it might take trying different things, but there is always another way.