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the drama department kicks back in!  UGH!  I feel like all I do is vent on here about “stuff”.  Yeah in a way it is weight loss related….I am one of those people that if the wind is taken out of my sails for something, it takes a bit for me to get back to it…..like exercise.

rn

So last night, Jess starts in again….I tell her that she needs to take a bath once Garrett is done.  1/2 hour goes by and I tell her she needs to go up…she is watching something and starts crying and “but I want to watch this”  I tell her that she needs to go run her water and there will be reruns…she starts crying but not moving off the couch….I tell her again she needs to go take her bath and I shut the TV off and tell her if she continues she will get 2 days no TV….she continued with her fit and again was asking for the TV so I told her thats it, no TV for 2 days.  When she gets upset and frustrated she does not know how to shut it down.  So she takes her bath….still crying….she comes down and asks again about the TV…now during this, Kevin is on the phone with me hearing it all and can’t believe it….she I told her that her doing that is not respectful of me (at this point she said a few things) and does she treat her dad like this at his house and told her that during the time she has no TV that she needs to think about the way she talks to me and others around her.  So she comes down about 20 minutes later telling me she has something on her mind….long story(as if not long enough) short…that her Dad and his wife told her that when the time comes for her to choose where she wants to live if she doesn’t choose them they will be very upset with her!!!!  WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I think THIS explains some things about her behavior.  I have been MORE than fair with my ex….even when he was not a part of her life before he met his current wife….suddenly he became father of the year….but I have never said anything bad about him to Jess and kept the adult issues away from kids.  This however, made me spout off at the mouth a bit last night and I told her some truths about why we split up(not in full detail) and different things of his nature.  Also, in talking to Kevin about all of it last night, I am calling a lawyer today and domestic relations….I am moving my child support case to my county and I am going to refile to get the minimum I can get….thats right minimum because in with my being a nice person and feeling badly for him, I take only 1/4 of what I am entitled to…..being nice apparently has not gotten me anywhere and him putting that type of guilt on my 9 y/o’s head has just pushed me from being nice into another mode that he is not going to like very much.

rn

So onto today…..I have no idea what I am eating yet….I don’t think my stomach can take food I am so upset……I will be doing Sculpted Buns hips & Thighs for my workout later.  After that it’s up to the ballfield…3 games and 1 practice. UGH.

rn