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I really don’t want to be here today.  I am too tired and still do not feel good at all.  This cold sore on my lip is stinging like crazy and I need a nap.  I know….want some cheese to go with that whine?  Maybe after I do my check run I will leave for the day.  Lord knows I have enough running around to do with my daughter tonight…school shopping. UGH.  I hate shopping.  Especially in our hick town….I have to drive 30 miles in any direction to get to a decent store.

For the first time I finally had the Mickey D’s Southwest Chicken Salad!  YUMMY!  But I was not about to spend 3 points on that little packet of dressing…I used half and even that I felt was too much.  Next time I get it, I think I will just use salsa on it.  BUT the good news on this is I have journaled everything this week.  Every BLT AND have been drinking all my water.   Good first steps to get back on track.

Oh well…..I have to finish posting stuff so I can run checks and get outta here.

What a busy week it has been!  I am still trying to catch up from 2 weeks ago when I was on vacation here at work.  We were in Playa Del Carmen Mexico for our slightly delayed honeymoon.  What a mess I came back to!!!!!  Oh well, I can only do what I can do.

The hubby came home at 2:00 last night.  UGH.  The dog went NUTS and woke me up, but thats alright.  It’s the start of the fall season which means he will be on the road more than home until about Thanksgiving.  It truly starts Labor Day and if he is home 6 days between then and Turkey day I will be lucky.   I don’t mind it too much because I can get into my own groove with my program…..otherwise he distracts me…..”oh you dont need to workout, lets go do this” “one wing and a couple of beers isn’t going to hurt you” things like that.  He loves me the way I am, and that is fine and think it’s a beautiful thing that I finally have that in my life BUT I am not happy with the way that I am.  Not by a longshot.  I hate the thuttocks(you know…the thighs and butt kind of blend together), I hate the stomach and my arms look horrible too.  OK so my positives……..my face for sure….yes I will say it, I am pretty.  I was always one of those “she would be so beautiful if she was thinner” girls.  I have an awesome personality too!  Funny and people love to hang out with me because you just never know what is going to come out of my mouth next.  I am the cool mom/stepmom.  The kids friends all looooooove to come to our house because there is always something going on.

Enough about that……..some more good stuff.  Some friends of mine that we were all on another weight loss site have come over here.  I am hoping more come too.  We left that other site mainly because if you slipped up, you felt like crap about it.  I feel we are our harshest critics to begin with, I don’t need someone else making me feel badly thank you very much.  So we were all still trying to support each other but through email and after reading 1000 emails a day, it got to be too much.  Since I had found this site a few months ago, I told some people about it and now we are going to use the forum here like we did at the other site for our daily check in with each other and to help motivate.

OK…..so I still feel yucky, but at least I am home from work now.

There was a cinnamon roll on the counter staring at me a bit ago that I reallllly wanted but said nope.  I opted for an apple with a TBSP of lite caramel dip instead and didn’t even finish it. 

My Wii workout is not happening tonight as the controls for some reason are not synching.  BUT I am determined to walk at the track later when football practice is going on as long as the rain holds off.  Honestly, I don’t feel like walking, but I feel I have to do something.  I just took some cold/flu medicine so hopefully I will feel a bit better.  Like I said I have got to get in gear with the exercise again.  I used to get up at 4:30 every morning and do The Firm.  I have over 30 Firm videos here and love them all.  First, I can’t get up that early anymore.  I just can’t.  I have got to try and get into a routine again somehow though because honestly exercise is what pulls it all together for me…the whole healthy routine, being in control, feeling good, looking good, enjoying what I am doing.

At any rate, for today it will have to be a walk because I can not imagine doing a rigorous workout as sick as I feel……better than nothing though!

Dinner tonight….I still have not done a proper food shopping since we got home from Mexico.  That will be this weekend and I will have menus prepared and a list ready to go.  Tonight the kids want pizza.  So for me, I am going with some soup.

Later, to keep my hands busy, I have got to get back to work with a baby blanket I am crocheting……so dual purpose there.

In my hurrying and scurrying this morning I forgot to bring my lunch! GRRRR.

Soooo it was off to Wendy’s for a baked potato and small chili.  That will definately hold me over until dinner later.

My step son FINALLY showed up this morning to watch the kids so I could get to work.  I HATE being late.  On a great note, he brought his Wii with him!  I now know what my workout will be later this evening.  I will walk during Garrett’s football practice and then play Wii boxing.  OMG what a workout that is!!!!!!!  I am so happy that Santa is bringing a Wii to our house for all of the kids this year.  I already told the hubby I want the workout disc that is either out or about to come out for it. 

I started out feeling alright this morning but as I sit here at work, I feel like yuck and my cold sore looks like I was stung by a bee on my lip it is sooooo swollen in the one spot.  Maybe I am allergic to work and need to hit that Powerball tonight! LOL  Such wishful thinking!

Food Log

I think I did really good yesterday.  I had it in my head to workout, but of course plans changed.  In the last hour of work I started to feel yucky….body achy, sneezing, headache.  By the time I got home a cold sore started along with all of the other stuff, so I did not get a workout in.  I feel a bit better this morning, just annoyed that I should have just gotten something done.  My body is probably in shock that I was eating properly and drinking all my water! ROTFLMAO.  My body didn’t know what was going on I am sure.

So on tap for today…….the sabatour (sp?) is coming home late tonight.  He is on my home turf right now of Long Island.  It’s really sad…..instead of fun things to do, I am telling him all the good places to go eat!  “oh honey, make sure you go to Dortoni’s and have a cannoli” “yummm honey make sure you go down to All American for a burger and shake” “go to a good greek diner for lunch and get a greek salad”  Centered around FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I think you get my point in this.  Luckily, he doesn’t have any time to do that stuff anyway nor does he have a car rental.  work 12 hours, sleep 8.  I would have loved to go with him on this trip so I could see my dad for a few days!  Shoot for that matter, my sister went camping for a few days, the whole tribe could have gone and we could have all stayed at her apartment!

OK….so my plan for today……if my stepson ever shows up to watch the kids, I will go to work…if not I will run up there and bring work home.  Food….oatmeal for breakfast, turkey wrap for lunch and a salad w/ ff dressing.  Not sure what for dinner just yet.  I would like to at least do my Tami Lee Webb I want those dvd later too.

Oh man….it has been 2 months since I have last been here.  Needless to say, during that time all I watched was the food going into my mouth.

So I have gained everything back that I lost plus a pound.

During this time I got married and went on a fabulous honeymoon in Mexico.  Loved every second of it and we had such a great time.  BUT NOW IT IS BACK TO REALITY and my reality is that I feel like crap about myself right now.  I have got to get back in control of my eating and exercise habits.  That started today.  I have been journaling everything and started counting points again…of course until I get sick of it I am sure.  As for exercise, when I drop Garrett off at football practice tonight, I will come home and do something.

Anyway…back into the swing of things.