Stressed…but not eating over it.
Soooo part of why this recommitment to myself is going so great this week is because my husband is working. He travels all fall and all spring working at power plants all over the place. He is gone for 3-4 weeks at a time, home for a couple of days and then back out he goes.
He is a bit mad at me right now over something I said to him, but feel he is taking it the wrong way. I had said to him in a conversation before he left that in a way I was glad he was hitting the road because now I can do what I need to do without a distraction. He took great offense to that.
Kevin will tell me “I think you are beautiful no matter what you weigh”. He will also insist on certain things being cooked…totally meat and potatoes. If I made something healthy, yes he would try it, but then in the next breath tell me he does not like it. When he is home, I feel we need to make up for time not spent together, so any exercise goes out the window. In addition, he unconsiously sabotages me…..sweets brought home, constant get togethers with beer and tons of food. I realize that it is up to me as to what is put into my mouth. But when you are struggling, that is VERY hard to do, I do not care who you are. If you didnt start peddling, it’s easier to fall off.
So with him gone right now, I feel it is easiest for me to start peddling….get into good habits again…see some results that will motivate me.
I don’t know what else to say…..I guess it’s just the lack of communication that we are having right now just has me upset and I would rather blog these feelings than eat.
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Jen Huge hugs I really know how that feels I too sturggle with things and at times feel fat and not sure how to handle things… try talking to Kevin and explain he may love you the way you are but you want to be more healthy and get back to your weight goal hopefully he will understand if he dont do it anyway!! Gina
You found each other the way that you were. You fell in love with each other the way that you were. He probably sees nothing but perfection because you are that to him. He might even feel a tinge of anxiety over how you’ll respond to him when you are at goal… or better yet how people will respond to you. I know one thing for sure: you two were totally meant to be together. Just from pictures you can SEE how much you mean to each other. You’ll forge through… you always do! Until then, two words for ya: DAMAGE CONTROL!
LOL Love ya Jen! Xan
OK, I figure I have time for probably one post today, so I chose your blog (c’mon, I know your flattered
Here’s my .02…take what you want from it. I echo Xan, but I’ll add that unless he understands that it is YOU who doesn’t feel good about YOU, and that it is for YOU that you want to feel better, than he will continue to sabotage it. I know he has internet access. I think you should email him so he can read it and let it marinate. Tell him that you know he loves you the way you are, but that you love yourself more when you’re healthy. You want to be around to live a long assed life with him and the kids, and in order to do that you have to change certain things, and that he makes that difficult for you to do. You’re not going to reach goal and leave him for someone else…you’ve kissed the frogs and found the prince. I’m sure he’s worried about that. Most men are. Maybe that comment came out because you are frustrated at what happens when he comes home.
Ya know what I’m saying? Sometimes you can get the point across cleared, and with less interference from emotion when you email it. I’ve done this with dh more times than I can count.
Gotta run…good luck. He loves you, you love him…he just needs to understand you a little better, that’s all….just growing pains.
Smooches,
Sue