Jen16226

Ya know…I could have very easily given myself permission to not start WW until I actually went to a meeting, which now it looks like won’t happen until the 7th.

I live in a rather rural area so there are not alot of choices with meetings.  I have 2 that I can attend…one on a Monday in my town or one on Wed. in the next town.  I just looked at the girls basketball schedules and one of the boy’s schedule and it looks like Monday’s will be the only day I can do it where there is not a practice or a game interferring time wise.  Luckily any Mon games are at 3:30, so that is good.

Also good is that I am really trying here.  This is my 4th time at it with WW.  The last time I was at goal for a few years and even worked for them.  I enjoyed it ALOT but I had such horrible things going on in my life at that time….honestly I was in the middle of a nervous breakdown and any sanity that I had left had to be reserved for my kids.  Eating right was the last thing on my mind at that point and time……BUT everyone at some point slips in their life…..it’s just what you do once you get back up.  I think I am finally back up.  I have that mindset that I used to have.  I feel good.  I feel confident.

If at first you don’t succeed try try again.

That seems to be my battle cry from the past year!  Redo moments have become a specialty.

So that being said, here is yet another redo moment in the works.  I decided last week that I would rejoin WW.  Tops just plain sucked.  The meeting I went to had NOTHING motivating.  Sorry, I need more than just stepping on a scale at this stage of the game.    That said, I bought my monthly pass online this morning.  I was not going to have yet another excuse happen…..oh I can’t get there until next week, so I can’t do it yet.  Yes I can…for the moment I can do it online.  Besides,  I know every point off the top of my head. That is sad.  No, sad is me stepping on the scale this morning and seeing my highest weight in recent years and almost throwing up right there.

Sooooooooo here I go again.  My plan of action should be good to go….particularly with the hubby leaving on Saturday and god knows when he will be back…..if I see him 15 days between Saturday and Memorial day I will be lucky.  BUT this is what I need…..no sabotage, no underfoot, no embarrasment while working out.  Just do it.