Jen16226

OK…I have been doing very well all week and now here we are at the weekend.  Unfortunately for me, I do not have a ton of options here on the weekend, in particularly on Saturday’s when I am at the football field for 8 hours.

My plan of attack for the day…..make sure I do not leave this house hungry, drink a ton of water.  We have 3 of 4 games where we have kids playing, so during that game where I do not have a child playing we will leave and go get something to eat nearby…..I WILL opt for a salad of some sort.  While at the field: I will not eat nachos.  I will not eat a hot dog.  I will not eat a snickers bar or 2.  I will also smuggle in an apple just in case I start to get hungry. 

That is my plan for the day.  I need to be firm and know that I have been doing soooooooo good all week and just stick to it!

Soooo part of why this recommitment to myself is going so great this week is because my husband is working.  He travels all fall and all spring working at power plants all over the place.  He is gone for 3-4 weeks at a time, home for a couple of days and then back out he goes. 

He is a bit mad at me right now over something I said to him, but feel he is taking it the wrong way.  I had said to him in a conversation before he left that in a way I was glad he was hitting the road because now I can do what I need to do without a distraction.  He took great offense to that.

Kevin will tell me “I think you are beautiful no matter what you weigh”.  He will also insist on certain things being cooked…totally meat and potatoes.  If I made something healthy, yes he would try it, but then in the next breath tell me he does not like it.  When he is home, I feel we need to make up for time not spent together, so any exercise goes out the window.  In addition, he unconsiously sabotages me…..sweets brought home, constant get togethers with beer and tons of food.  I realize that it is up to me as to what is put into my mouth.  But when you are struggling, that is VERY hard to do, I do not care who you are.  If you didnt start peddling, it’s easier to fall off.

So with him gone right now, I feel it is easiest for me to start peddling….get into good habits again…see some results that will motivate me. 

I don’t know what else to say…..I guess it’s just the lack of communication that we are having right now just has me upset and I would rather blog these feelings than eat.

It truly was a good day.  I think I am going to like doing exchanges.  Like I said, it is sooo much like the old WW selections.  The only thing that I noticed (and I am not sure if it because I do not have all of the material yet) is on the journal, there is not space for any type of optional calories.  So what I did last night was added in some calories.  The old selection plan or freedom plan called for using 250 additional calories if you wanted to.  I think back in the day I used to bank the whole weeks so I could go to the bar on Saturday night! LOL  I know that plan truly worked for me and even better……I enjoyed it!

I did not get any type of exercise in……instead I started moving stuff out of my living room in prepartion for priming the walls.  I know my arms are going to get quite the workout here in the next day of so.  Later I am going to fill some small cracks and take any type of hardware out of the walls.  Fun huh?  

Yeah, I know.  I put day 1 as the title, but meanwhile I have been putzing around for awhile with any kind of weight loss.

Soooo last week I joined TOPS and the leader wasn’t there and the meeting was non existent.  I kept an open mind and went back last night.  Again the leader was not there.  I guess they do not get subs when they are out like WW does?!?!  Once again, it was not a meeting…….a weigh in, who was up who was down and 5 minutes later out the door.  I realllllly hope that is not how the meeting is when the leader is  there too.   There is a meeting on Thursday nights at the same church, but I can’t do Thursday night right now with football practice still going on.  Anyway, with the hubby gone on the road, I have the right mindframe….lord knows last week with him about to leave I was not.  So since, once again, I was not given any materials I took it upon myself to go onto their website and look for info.  I found their exchange cards, some info (but not very detailed), and their food journal…which I think is very nice.  BTW….I did ask at the meeting if anyone could give me info on exchanges and NOBODY there does exchanges…they just do their own thing.  so after printing that stuff…since I am a WW member from way back and keep alot of stuff…..I grabbed some older cookbooks from the “selections” era….they are almost exactly the same.  So for this week for dinner, I am making things out of those cookbooks so I have the exchanges right in front of me. 

Hopefully the leader will be there next week and have materials for me.  I can’t remember how to figure some of the exchanges/selections so I need a refresher.  If not, then I will somehow go to the Thursday meeting even if it is just to ask for materials and a little bit of help.

On another note….exercise is non existent.  Right now I am waiting to go back to the Ortho for my MRI results.  My knees are shot.  I will find out at that appointment if I need surgery or not.  OK….so on that note…my abs and arms are not connected to my legs.  Therefore..I am going to get a tape out tonight..probably Tamilee Webb since there isn’t anything jarring to the knees (on the firm part of the arm workouts include doing pushups). 

AND more helpful…..I have to get back in the habit of posting on here more often!

I think I did really good yesterday.  I had it in my head to workout, but of course plans changed.  In the last hour of work I started to feel yucky….body achy, sneezing, headache.  By the time I got home a cold sore started along with all of the other stuff, so I did not get a workout in.  I feel a bit better this morning, just annoyed that I should have just gotten something done.  My body is probably in shock that I was eating properly and drinking all my water! ROTFLMAO.  My body didn’t know what was going on I am sure.

So on tap for today…….the sabatour (sp?) is coming home late tonight.  He is on my home turf right now of Long Island.  It’s really sad…..instead of fun things to do, I am telling him all the good places to go eat!  “oh honey, make sure you go to Dortoni’s and have a cannoli” “yummm honey make sure you go down to All American for a burger and shake” “go to a good greek diner for lunch and get a greek salad”  Centered around FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I think you get my point in this.  Luckily, he doesn’t have any time to do that stuff anyway nor does he have a car rental.  work 12 hours, sleep 8.  I would have loved to go with him on this trip so I could see my dad for a few days!  Shoot for that matter, my sister went camping for a few days, the whole tribe could have gone and we could have all stayed at her apartment!

OK….so my plan for today……if my stepson ever shows up to watch the kids, I will go to work…if not I will run up there and bring work home.  Food….oatmeal for breakfast, turkey wrap for lunch and a salad w/ ff dressing.  Not sure what for dinner just yet.  I would like to at least do my Tami Lee Webb I want those dvd later too.

Oh man….it has been 2 months since I have last been here.  Needless to say, during that time all I watched was the food going into my mouth.

So I have gained everything back that I lost plus a pound.

During this time I got married and went on a fabulous honeymoon in Mexico.  Loved every second of it and we had such a great time.  BUT NOW IT IS BACK TO REALITY and my reality is that I feel like crap about myself right now.  I have got to get back in control of my eating and exercise habits.  That started today.  I have been journaling everything and started counting points again…of course until I get sick of it I am sure.  As for exercise, when I drop Garrett off at football practice tonight, I will come home and do something.

Anyway…back into the swing of things.

Oh yes…..it is Friday and a 3 day, child free weekend to boot!!! WOO HOO.  No work, no ball games…..HOORAY!

This is going to be TMI but I have definately noticed something since getting my tubes tied over the winter….1st that I get my symptoms of TOM an entire week early now and 2 once here I feel like a train ran me over.  I can deal with this much better than the migraines the IUD was causing though, but still.  So my WI this week was up 2 pounds.  That is not surprising on a few different fronts….my food has not been spectacular, my exercise was nil, and well TOM.  I am VERY happy that a few of my friends that were on another weight loss support board have come over here with me.  We are going to do a challenge among ourselves.  I think this is just what I need to help me and for us to help each other.  I was on another challenge on here(and sorry if any of you are reading this) and I just think it wasnt for me.  I need something a bit smaller, so as not to get lost in the crowd and to get more motivation.

So on the food front today…..not sure because I honestly feel sick to my stomach. 

Well I am hooraying myself…….I moved offices today at work…filing cabinets, desks, everything…..and I have to be at the softball field in less than an hour. I soooo could have used that as an excuse not to workout, but I did it!!!  A few weeks ago, I definately would have said “you deserve to not workout today…that was workout enough and besides we have to hurry and get ready to go”……I guess I have my motivation back!

OK…to the shower to get ready to go!

JUST SAY NO TO CONCESSION STAND FOOD!