Jen16226

I say it every Monday….I need to hit the lottery so I don’t have to go to work!  I am realllllly not liking my job.  I took this job a little over a year ago because it was closer to home for me.  I took a massive paycut in doing so, but felt it was worth it so I could do things with the kids.  I was commuting over an hour one way to my old job…this one is 2 miles up the road….but I truly do not like it.  More responsibility, less pay….and the way they do things, I swear I stepped back 30 years.  When I started there, they told me that they wanted someone that would help in changing the way things are done…..well everytime I try to make a change it gets balked.  Add to that the boss’ son that now works for the company in a position that constantly puts my work behind schedule, then I get bitched at for being behind.  I have dotted my I’s and crossed my T’s in covering my own @$$ in that area, but to no avail.  There are not many jobs in this rural area unless you are in healthcare……which I am not.

Sorry for the rambling vent guys! LOL

Onto weight loss……I have weigh in tonight.  I know it is not going to be great, but that is alright.  I was sick almost all last week….eating was not great, virtually no exercise.  I don’t think I gained, more like stayed the same, but we will see tonight.  One week while sick does not undermine all the hard work I have been putting in for over a month!

The kids have all been sick and of course, they passed their colds onto me.  For some reason, though, I have had it a million times worse than they had it.  It started Wed. and just this morning I finally feel alright….definately not 100%, but alot better than I did.   Needless to say, my food and exercise have not been great since about Thursday.  I just had not an ounce of energy to get a workout in and the majority of food that I ate was in the form of soup.  I can’t remember the last time I felt that sick.

BUT I feel alot better.  I am going to take a babystep today and get on the elliptical since my living room is full of sleeping children. LOL  I am sure I won’t make it long on the elliptical, but something is surely better than nothing.

Last night we went to a get together and I made Cheesy Bean Rollups and had the hubby make artichoke & Spinach dip.  Both are from one of my WW magazines and I was very proud that I stuck to that for the most part in eating there.  With all the other food there, I only ate 5 points of that…and that was mostly in chips!  Most of the people were hanging out in the kitchen, but I knew if I stayed in there I would eat alot more, so I made it a point to get into the living room with one of my friends.

On tap for today is dinner at my in laws……this is always danger and I have avoided going there since I restarted my weight loss efforts.  I know there is not going to be anything remotely healthy on the table.  Soooooo I will make sure that I eat something before we go over there.  Tonight, I am not sure how many of the kids will be here.  The hubby just left this morning for Arizona on a job and while I have his kids here now, not sure if they are staying the night or going home later……will find that out.  Either way, it will be fairly easy to stay in control with food in my own house.

Ugh it’s Monday!  I sooooo don’t want to go to work today! 

I haven’t blogged since Friday……

So I went and played racquetball with the hubby on Friday night and I was sooooo embarrassed!  He killed me in it.  I felt sooooo out of shape.  I also learned something else about my hubby that night……he played before.  Not only did he play before but he won tournaments on base when he was still in the Air Force!  I was FURIOUS when I found that out. 

My eating and exercise was really good last week.  I hit my goal of working out 5 days again.  Hopefully I can hit it again this week……AND I have weigh in tonight….so we will see what the metal monster tells me.

OY!  Today is racquetball day with the hubby.  THIS should be hysterical!  First of all, I am such a klutz!  I am already picturing getting hit in the face with the ball. LOL  Secondly, I can already see the huffing and puffing that will happen.  BUT I already booked the court at the Y and it is a done deal……no backing out now.  Can’t show the hubby that I am a chicken! So far everything he has done the past couple of days that he is home has been condusive to my weight loss….I would truly prefer that we can do something together too in the form of exercise so he feels totally involved….plus it will be fun….I think.

I already have the whole evening planned………after the Y, we have to go sign up 4 of our 5 kids for little league(I can’t believe it is that time of year again already!  I could just puke considering we spent 7 months at the field last year….but better to be out there during warm weather unlike football season!) then home where I am cooking some thai food out of one of my WW cookbooks.  I will control the food……I already told him we are eating at home tonight.  In the past this would mean beer and wing night…..particularly since we won’t have kids tonight.  I am standing my ground!!!!

For those that have read my blogs before, you know one of my chief compaints is that my husband is not very supportive in my weight loss journey.  He travels 7 months out of the year, so when he is home it gets lazy.  YES part of that is my fault, but I have asked for his help(deal with the kids so I could exercise, certain foods cooked, not eat out or drink so much, etc.) so I could be productive and I had not gotten it. 

So he came home yesterday afternoon.  He is hopefully going to be home for a week.  First great thing he did(other than hugs & kisses) was offered to take the youngest to swim class so I could workout.  Next, he was in the mood for steaks for dinner….he stopped at the store and bought that…but also bought pork chops and chicken breasts and grilled everything outside in 15 degree weather.  This is a MAJOR step in the right direction.  Another biggie……as soon as he saw me, he told me that you could see how hard I am working and that he could see in my face, my hips and my legs that I have lost weight.  Tomorrow night we do not have any of the kids….we are a blended family so they will be with their other parents….I suggested that we go to the Y and try to play racquetball and he said yes!  I am soooo excited!

Here comes the chaos.  My husband will be home tonight and my feet have already had to dig in.  He asked what the plans were for dinner tonight(which was leftovers) and suggested that we go out to dinner.   I told him there was no need for that and asked him what he would like…of course steak.  BUT I am very easily going to make a grilled chicken breast for myself.  The sides will be a baked potato and veggie…..doable.

I have a conflict on Friday that is going to get in the way of my exercise rotation.  Ugh already!  I have to take my son to meet his dad for the weekend and then I have to register the kids for little league after that(I can’t believe signups are already!  We spent 3/4 of the year at a baseball diamond last year due to 3 of the kids in all stars and my daughter played fall ball too).  I will decide later if I am going to swap my off day of Thursday with Friday or, if my hubby will be home, I am going to reserve the racquetball court at the Y and we can go together.  I would waaaayyy prefer the Y so we could spend time together.   Our usual Friday night without the kids is going to eat(usually wings are friday night) and then going to the eagles for drinks.  Right now, at this stage of the game, I don’t want to go out for drinks.  That is why I think if we go do something productive like the Y it would be better for me.

Ok thats the plan!

I had my meeting last night and was down 2.4.  I swear the scale at home and the scale at WW are soooooo different.  At first I was kind of upset about 2.4.  TOM visited the week before, and last week I worked out hard doing my Firm videos.  Then as I sat there listening to some other people that were upset about their losses as well…..BUT were also saying how they cheated a few times, or weren’t journaling, or didn’t exercise….I thought you know I am doing everything right…THAT is what matters the most. 

Here is what matters the most to me with my program:

That I do not deny myself.  If I want something, WW is felxible enough that I can somehow work it in. 

That I try really hard to work on getting as many fruits and veggies in as possible.

That I stick to my exercise rotation that I made…..if it means working out at 8 at night to get it done, then so be it…..NO EXCUSES allowed in that department.

That I get my water in…..which this week I have to work on that on the weekend. 

That I vary my points everyday….that is what worked for me in the past, so I will go back to that…..eat my target one day and the next eat more.

What matters most is that I try hard everyday…..and I am about to have my first reallllll test at some point this week.  My husband is going to be home for a couple of days.  I will come on here for extra support and keep my feet firmly planted.  Just say no to “come on honey lets go for beer & wings”.  I just don’t want the temptation.  If he wants that, I can make a healthier version here for us.

Yesterday was our family day at the Y.  I took 4 of the 5 kids and 2 of their friends for the afternoon and I am sooooo sore!  We played 3 on 3 basketball…AND I KEPT UP WITH THEM!!!!!!!!!!  One of the kids was huffing and puffing before I was!!!!!  I am giddy about that!  The kids even told Kevin last night that they were impressed that I kept up….but I am not very good. hehehe  As long as I kept up.

Anyway….when I was talking to hubby about the Y, he said when he came home maybe we could go play racquetball one night.  Woohoo!  That sounds on board with it to me.  He brought it up, I didn’t have to say it to him.  That sounds like a step in the right direction.  He also said I should ask male child #1 to watch the kids every Monday night so I can go to my meeting, that way I always have it in place.  Wow!

On tap for today….the kids are off from school so I am taking the 3 younger ones to the Y for play day.  It’s right up the street from my office, so that works out great. Plus it is cheaper than daycare and they have so much fun there when it’s off from school. 

Oh well….gotta run and put my dinner in the crockpot…fajita style beef stew.  It’s from WW Slow Good.

Our new Sunday thing to do during the winter……basketball and swimming at the Y.

I am sitting here waiting on my stepkids to be dropped off so we can go. 

I did reallllllly well with food yesterday.  My Daughter had 2 of her friends sleep over after their basketball games.  I did all their favorite “pick” foods….cheesesticks, mini tacos, pizza rolls.  Plus they made ice cream sundaes later.  I on the other hand stuck to my guns and had a lean cuisine panini and a large salad.  As they had ice cream, I had my low fat one and measured it out with just a drizzle of chocolate syrup…..and I still had points left thanks to the workout I did yesterday!!!

So today, as I said is the Y, then the kids all want pizza for dinner.  I will probably stick with another lean cuisine and a salad. I don’t feel like cooking for myself.  I already have tomorrow nights dinner planned too…….mexican night.  I have a recipe from one of my WW cookbooks for a fajita stew(they don’t need to know it’s WW) and I will also set up make your own tacos….the kids love when I do that…..of course I won’t eat until I get home from my WI.

I had posted on here previously about how unsupportive my husband is with any weight loss efforts.  The current status is he knows i joined WW and knows I have been working out.  I renewed my effort when he left on the 27th and am down over 10 pounds since.  He has not asked once how it is going with WW or my workouts. 

So last night while we were on the phone, it all got thrown onto the table.  He is trying to quit smoking (yes another vice that I will eventually try to get rid of) and he asked how come I haven’t asked how he is doing with it since he started last week.  I immediately asked him why….he said because he needs my support.  So I told him “well how many times have I asked for your support so I can get this weight off and be healthy and i don’t get it from you?  You haven’t asked once how my working out is going or how WW is going”  He then said, “OK, how is WW going” So I told him I am down about 10 pounds since he went on the road.  He was quiet for a moment, and then said “so I cause you to gain weight”  And I told him that he is a big factor in my gain, yes.  I told him how I have asked him for help with the kids so I can workout, it is hard to do it when there are 5 or more kids in the house, I have asked that food for me be grilled or baked and you continue to fry or make gravy meals, and i drink too many calories when you are home too.  I also told him that from now on when he is home, I want his support.  If he can not help keep the kids out of my area so I can workout, then i will leave and go to the Y to get my workout in or go for a bike ride.  If he can not help with the food department in making something healthier for me, then we will be spending alot more money because I will cook something totally different for myself for dinner every night. 

He said I seemed determined and he would be more supportive this time…when he comes off the road, he suggested we go to the Y together to play racquetball or use the workout equipment.  He also said we will go on bikes rides now that I have a bike(that was my birthday present…I was the only one in the house that didn’t have one and the trail near my house is only paved to a certain point so i couldn’t always follow on my rollerblades).  I am hoping that he means this.  I am hoping that he will see how much it really means that he is supportive.  My thought in starting this once he left for the road was to get a running start and be full steam ahead and have results that would keep me motivated so when I hit a bump in the road once he was home, I wouldn’t be derailed.

Anyway…I can hope he means what he says…sometimes that doesn’t always happen.  But right now I am in control and loving it. 

That said, I need to go and get changed so I can workout.